• Anxiety,  Confidence,  Personal

    I’ve been driving a year!

    Today marks 1 year since I finally passed my driving test! It was my third time in trying although the 3 times are spread over the course of 6 years (I know, I know!). The third time i took it though was the first time i felt ready, and felt like I was doing it for myself and didn’t feel pushed into it. I was making all the decisions. I had three different driving instructors, didn’t get on with the first, liked the second but he moved away and the third was cool. Between 2008- 2016 I had 4 different attempts at learning to drive. I didn’t realise how right…

  • Confidence,  Personal,  Spoonies,  University

    To the teachers who helped shape me – Good and Bad

    10 years ago I was taking my GCSE’s at school, and I have been doing a lot of thinking recently about how much has happened since then. In that time I have only had 2 years out of education and i think its since i went back to uni that I have been thinking about this more. I lack so much confidence in my academic ability and I really have been trying to think of how school was and all I can think of when thinking of school is the teachers who shaped me, the good, the bad and the comments that made me stronger. Don’t get me wrong I…

  • Confidence,  Exercise,  Personal,  Spoonies

    May goals

    Wow, another month has flown by. How are we in the 5th month of the year? This year is flying by but with the start of a new month it means a new goals post. I love setting myself mini goals for each and every month I feel accountable to you guys and literally just that little bit more motivated! First lets go back over last month and see how I have got on. No crisps – Yes! I achieved it again! 3 months without crisps. Honestly I am the biggest crisp addict and now I am not. The willpower I have surrounding crisps now is amazing. Come on, lets…

  • Confidence,  Exercise,  Fibromyalgia,  Personal,  Spoonies

    April goals

    Of all the months in the year April is usually the worst. I tend to find that some of the worst times have happened in April and that just makes me hate the month. This coming month its going to be totally different! I am going to go into May 1st feeling awesome. Firstly lets recap March goals and see how well I got on/failed… 8 visits to the gym – I managed 5. I did spend 1 week of this month with my arm in a sling after hurting my wrist so I don’t think I have done too bad all things considering. Don’t weigh myself in March – Other…

  • Anxiety,  Awareness,  Confidence,  Fibromyalgia,  Ignorance,  Personal,  Spoonies

    Why I don’t have full time job…yet.

    Ever since I finished university in August 2014 I have felt constantly judged by the entire world for not instantly making use of my degree and not having a full time job yet. Many of my real life friends know how hard it was for me to even get my degree, so I hate how people make me feel. For a while I managed to fob people off with excuses, I want to wait until x..y..z but now I am finding it really hard to come up with answers and I have come to the conclusion. Why do I need to come up with answers? Why do I need to…

  • Confidence,  Exercise,  Fibromyalgia,  Personal,  Weight loss

    12 week gym review

    Today I had my 12-week review at the gym. This was when I had my measurements redone to see how well I had done in the 12 weeks I have been working out. I knew that my weight would be more so I tried not to get hung up on that because I knew what to expect so choose not to know the exact weight (as that would ruin my don’t weigh myself in March, I just know that I am around 3kg heavier although I have no idea what I weighed at week one so really I don’t know how much I weigh right now). The only two measurements…

  • Family,  Fibromyalgia,  Friends,  Personal,  Spoonies

    My brothers 21st

    Monday 15th February was my brothers 21st birthday and it was a really good day. It was full of good food (well mostly), and lots of laughs and lush cake! My brother and I went out for a birthday lunch. We went to our local Wetherspoons pub as brother wanted an all day breakfast and it was the cheapest place. We also ordered a cheesy garlic flatbread as a starter and well… it was disgraceful. I wanted to complain, but brother scoffed half of it before I had a chance. Seriously… What is that?. The cheese wasn’t even really melted but it did taste alright! My brother sent the picture…

  • Exercise,  Interests,  Personal,  Weight loss

    Getting back to the gym

    Re-joining the gym was something I wanted to build up to after my fibro diagnosis and finally last month I managed it. I was referred through the g.p which means the trainers at the gym already knew I had health issues before I arrived, that means I could discuss a programme that would both push me but also not over-do it and make my pain worse. When I was at university I loved going to the gym, I had pain but I managed it well with exercise, stretches and I actually think living away from home helped on the stressed levels because I had much more peace and quiet. One…

  • Anxiety,  Fibromyalgia,  Personal

    Physio appointment – 21st October

    I had an appointment with a physio on the 21st October. It was the first time I’d had an appointment there so naturally I was very anxious. The good thing was I had visited the hospital many times before with my mum so I knew what to expect. In the waiting room across from me were a group of ladies that were doing the fibromyalgia coping skills course run by the hospital. What struck me was that despite the fact I knew they were sat there in pain all of them were smiling and happy and it made me proud of how resilient and strong people with fibromyalgia are. The…

  • Anxiety,  Personal

    Confidence…

    Phones, ugh they are great for texting but when it comes to answering them or worse still phoning someone then I am thrown into a blind panic. Don’t get me wrong, I am ok with the likes of ringing family but I hate anything work or health related – phoning doctors or hospital for example. I mean I had to properly psych myself up to ring the hospital to arrange my consultants appointment (Best thing I did!) Receiving a voicemail message would panic me and make me think who wants me and what do they want me to do! However the other day, without even thinking of it none of…