• Anxiety,  Awareness,  Confidence,  Fibromyalgia,  Personal,  Spoonies

    My blog turns 1!

    Onceuponafibrotime was born out of ignorance and frustration. People having a real lack of understanding of fibro when I have had to learn about fibro since before i knew how to spell the word. I naively expected the same of everyone else. The name. Well, I was sat there on the Monday evening drafting ideas, I just kept thinking how life with Fibro is anything but life like a fairy tale. I just kept saying to myself once upon a fibro time life is anything but good and so i had this desire to document it, letting out the feelings I had kept bottled up feelings that I had fibro…

  • Anxiety,  Personal

    Driving test….It happened and…

    This week I took my driving test (for the third time) and guess what…. I PASSED! YAY! I am sooo chuffed, its unreal how much I still can’t quite believe its true because on and off I have been learning for 8 years, granted more off than on but I have really struggled with confidence and anxiety so to finally have passed it is an amazing feeling. The test itself actually bought me right outside my house to do an emergency stop, of all the places it could have taken me! My dad was even in the house at the time not knowing I was taking my test, had he…

  • Anxiety,  Confidence,  Fibromyalgia,  Friends,  Personal

    Chronic illness and friendship

    Don’t get me wrong I understand that a friendship with a chronically ill person can be difficult. Understanding the difficulties that a person goes through can’t be easy. But in reverse people with chronic illnesses have a tough time too. The uncertainty of a life with a chronic illness makes it hard to arrange plans with friends. I am very lucky to have some friends who would be totally cool with me cancelling last minute if my pain was so bad but for some people because they see that “I look ok” they don’t understand why I can’t keep up with the pace. If I make plans with a friend…

  • Anxiety,  Confidence,  Exercise,  Fibromyalgia,  Personal,  Spoonies

    Why I love the gym…

    I get asked both in real life and online how can I have fibromyalgia and still go to the gym. Well firstly I am not going to the gym and doing 100kg bench presses, forcing my body to do things it can’t manage. The workout programme has been put together by someone who understands the conditions I have, along with my limitations (Although I like to believe I don’t have any) and they have given me exercises I can manage and I work at them when my body allows. I rejoined the gym under the advice of the physio at the hospital so it is not something I decided lightly.…

  • Anxiety,  Awareness,  Confidence,  Personal

    On a bad anxiety day…

    ANXIETY— i just hate it. I have suffered for a very long time but only in the last year I have been more open about it and tried to talk about it in order to help myself overcome my issues. On a bad day my mind can be running at a million miles an hour where my body can barely move one. It hears someone say something and automatically I misinterpret things because my mind tells me other things. It convinces me of things and tries to drag me down. Then when I find out that my rational mind and not my completely irrational mind was indeed correct I feel stupid.…

  • Anxiety,  Awareness,  Confidence,  Fibromyalgia,  Ignorance,  Personal,  Spoonies

    Why I don’t have full time job…yet.

    Ever since I finished university in August 2014 I have felt constantly judged by the entire world for not instantly making use of my degree and not having a full time job yet. Many of my real life friends know how hard it was for me to even get my degree, so I hate how people make me feel. For a while I managed to fob people off with excuses, I want to wait until x..y..z but now I am finding it really hard to come up with answers and I have come to the conclusion. Why do I need to come up with answers? Why do I need to…

  • Anxiety,  Confidence,  Interests,  Personal

    February goals

    Now the longest month in history (January) is out of the way it is time to focus on moving forward. March will bring my 12-week review at the gym and my 3-month review at the hospital. So I would really like to make February a success so I can go to both of those appointments feeling much better about my health, and myself! I have set myself some goals for the month in order to make this the best February! 1: 10 visits to the gym I set the goal to go to the gym twice a week and I know on average this works out to be 2.5 times…

  • Anxiety,  Fibromyalgia,  Personal

    Physio appointment – 21st October

    I had an appointment with a physio on the 21st October. It was the first time I’d had an appointment there so naturally I was very anxious. The good thing was I had visited the hospital many times before with my mum so I knew what to expect. In the waiting room across from me were a group of ladies that were doing the fibromyalgia coping skills course run by the hospital. What struck me was that despite the fact I knew they were sat there in pain all of them were smiling and happy and it made me proud of how resilient and strong people with fibromyalgia are. The…

  • Anxiety,  Personal

    Confidence…

    Phones, ugh they are great for texting but when it comes to answering them or worse still phoning someone then I am thrown into a blind panic. Don’t get me wrong, I am ok with the likes of ringing family but I hate anything work or health related – phoning doctors or hospital for example. I mean I had to properly psych myself up to ring the hospital to arrange my consultants appointment (Best thing I did!) Receiving a voicemail message would panic me and make me think who wants me and what do they want me to do! However the other day, without even thinking of it none of…

  • Anxiety,  Awareness,  Fibromyalgia

    #LetsTalkAnxiety

    Phases of Robyn came up with the idea of the #LetsTalkAnxiety hashtag and I think its a fantastic idea. The idea being that sufferers of Anxiety tell their stories and help to fix the mental health stigma that causes so many of us to feel even worse. For me personally, to openly say “yes I suffer with Anxiety” is quite a new thing but I know that I have suffered on some level for years and it has been rubbish. At the moment I truly feel that anxiety is stopping me from moving forward with my life and that is the most frustrating thing of it all. In terms of getting…